Ok so about an hour ago i found out that the little kid which i  babysit for has died , and after a while it got me thinking , frankie wont grow up to live life ? to see special things , to date girls , to have a lads night out , to be silly with his mates , he was 8 months old , the poor thing hadnt even taken his first steps.

Then i thought back to last week , a girl who used to be a regular in the shop which i work in , *katie fowler* aged just 16 had died in a car crash , how cruel , for a life to just be snatched away from someone whether they be 8 months or 16 or 30 and so on.

I took a look around , life has just been passing me by.  I havent done anything remotely interesting during my existence ,

So if MY life was snatched away from me tomorow would I be happy with the way ive lived my life?

Have i lived it to the full? have i done all ive wanted to do ? and said all the things ive wanted to say to the people i care about ? and the answer was a simple NO

Yes i can go away now and say right i intend to do all those things , say what i mean to people , tell them i love them , but deep down i know i wont , i know that ill carry on living the way i always have been  , and thats what makes me feel saddest of all ,!